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no teach
Wednesday, Jun. 17, 2009, 4:26 p.m.

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have to cancel the job interview for teaching because i'm too scared to do it. just got the email and i'd have to do a teaching presentation and i just can't. i don't really want the job anyway, but i wanted an option. this job now is just not good for me. even the beta blocker isn't helping. i am not sure what to do and i don't know how to fix things.

my ac has been leaking for a month now and my carpet is soaked. toilet is broken and won't flush unless i fill it with water myself. dishwasher leaked all over the kitchen floor. garbage disposal is broken. won't call to get them fixed because my apartmt is too messy. running ac anyway because it is 97' outside. have a shopvac and just keep vacuuming up the water.

i just want to give up with working. never thought i'd get to this point. i want to apply for disability for my anxiety. it doesn't seem to be improving over time, only getting worse. all these years and still the same.

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